It was well past midnight as he had to complete a project he had been working on. He gets himself another cup of coffee but he drinks it without milk. With those sleepy red eyes, lousy head, messed up hair and that bi dark cup of strong black coffee; he couldn’t help but think of her again. He thought, “She would have loved that cup of coffee. But she is not here.”
** She reminded him of his most cursed day, “The sixth day of August 2017.” That day had changed everything he cared for. That cursed day destroyed everything that stood between them. That day, both of them were attending a cycling event. She was organising and he was participating. He remembered how after the event he went and sat beside his best friend, his love, prepared to confess his love. To go for it with all his will. He sat there in front of her tired but full of energy.
He sat there ready to open his chest full of thoughts, feelings and emotions he had suppressed for months then. But, fate had set another plan for him. A plan straight damn against what he had.
As he gathers all the courage left after the tiring cycling event and tells her, “I need to tell you something very important.” She turned towards him and replied,”Hey ! gimme a second naa. ” With that she turns towards her friend and calls, “Hey Jane! could you call my Boyfriend for me, please ?”
As soon as he heard those words the air felt thinner with every breath he took, the ground beneath his tired feet shook as it slipped away. His hands shivered like the hands of an eight month old child suffering from cold. Chills ran up and down his helpless spine. Terror grabbed him and pulled his nerves like a wrapper off a chocolate. His body was falling off, his brain shut down, his heart skipped beats like and athlete skipping hurdles. His head heavier that the heaviest thing on earth. He looks toward her stunned and asks,” You have a boyfriend ?”
She turns and replies, “Yes I do.” Before she could speak any further, her friend shouts,”OMG !!!! yes she does. You didn’t know? It is Aryaa “. And his love blushed beautifully. With this, he could do nothing. His body shut down. His brain didn’t function.
He stands up and grabs his head in despair and as he starts looking away she holds his hand and tells,”What !? don’t go. I meant to tell you.” Out of sheer shock he replies,”But you never told ME.”
“I wanted to but … I was about to.” she replied. His legs felt nu,b. his hands fell cold. He stood there spellbound. “What !? tell something” she asks. “Come on… It is okay. Please forgive me.”
With tears coming up, he knew there was nothing left there now. He was broken. His heart shattered into million pieces. His stomach felt like a punching bag in a gym. His lungs gasped for air while he stood in the storm of loneliness. He turns around and stats walking. She holds his hand from behind and tells him to wait. He replies that he had to get somewhere.
He runs from there and hides himself in one of the cubicle of the men’s room. He stuffed his mouth with his shirt and began crying. Tears left his eyes like Bullets out of a Maxim gun. He cried till his eyes felt dry. He cried till his he couldn’t cry anymore. He slaps himself till his cheeks were red. He wipes of his tears, flushes his face with water till his mouth felt normal and he leaves the washroom. He clears all his plans for the day and returns home. He meets his parents and lies to them that he was tired. He locks himself in his room and holds his tears. But like his situation with his best friend he loved his hold breaks and he cries. He cried for most of his day. At night he cries himself to sleep and succumbs his love under a wall of unfaithful and angry feelings.
That day a Best friend grew apart from the most closest he had ever been. That day a immature lover dies and an angry boy insecure and gifted with trust issues is born. **
Now that he thinks of her and that day, tears come back like bad memories. Love had failed him and the only friendship he had and trusted had broken his trust like a snake breaking the bones of it’s prey.
His insecurities acted dead weight and his issues with life added to them. Now, he was a broken young kid with his life ahead of him but tinted with the fog of sadness and pretentious happiness he now portrayed to the world.